[It isn't rocket science. She knows he's upset, on the verge of losing his composure. They've never particularly fought before. This is as close as she thinks they'll ever get, and already she's shutting all of her emotions off. She's broken once. She can't break again.]
I would never have wished that on either of you. I survive Reach, I survive everything. I survive, alone, probably as wretched as I deserve to be. Even my--
[Her precious Spartans. And knowing what she knows... Knowing what she knows, she couldn't have saved them. Couldn't have helped. Couldn't have done anything. Combat was not her area of expertise. Nothing she could have done, not science, not technology, not a single achievement could have saved them because she couldn't save everyone. She was, after all, so limited by the extent of her knowledge, what she learned and what she was told. And even now she knows things were kept from her, probably would be in the future.
If only people would let her do her job, maybe somehow, somehow, somehow she could have made a difference.
Saving humanity. But at what cost?
At the only cost. The cost of the few for the good of the many.]
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Date: 2013-04-08 01:40 am (UTC)I would never have wished that on either of you. I survive Reach, I survive everything. I survive, alone, probably as wretched as I deserve to be. Even my--
[Her precious Spartans. And knowing what she knows... Knowing what she knows, she couldn't have saved them. Couldn't have helped. Couldn't have done anything. Combat was not her area of expertise. Nothing she could have done, not science, not technology, not a single achievement could have saved them because she couldn't save everyone. She was, after all, so limited by the extent of her knowledge, what she learned and what she was told. And even now she knows things were kept from her, probably would be in the future.
If only people would let her do her job, maybe somehow, somehow, somehow she could have made a difference.
Saving humanity. But at what cost?
At the only cost. The cost of the few for the good of the many.]
--even so many of my Spartans. I outlive you all.