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Date: 2013-04-09 05:24 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[Him saying it out loud just makes things worse. Of course he'll be fine, once he mourns the daughter he so dearly loved, the daughter who is still just a child to both of them and who now they know will be lost all too soon.

She loses everything.

Not Dr. Halsey. Catherine.

She steadies herself on a crate inside the container. Her voice is hoarse.]


Jacob, I'm not fine.

Date: 2013-04-09 05:48 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[She lowers herself carefully to sit on the crate, head held in one hand, thumb massaging her temple as the other hand nervously casts through her hair.]

There's too much to process. I can't take one thing at a time and you know--of all people you know how difficult this is. [Don't make it about yourself, Catherine.] What if I never see either of you again? Or any of them? What if I never said goodbye, or anything else I should have said?

Date: 2013-04-09 06:01 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
I was the one who said it wasn't me, that I don't deserve to be treated like what they were describing. But I do. And I know that--you know that. But when it's passed in front of me, I have to admit it's difficult.

[She glances up when he starts talking around the pipe. It's oddly soothing when he does that, and it helps her fight back the tears that are welling up, calms the lump in her throat.]

It's difficult to comprehend any of it.

[A cough. Things are crashing down, mentally, and she can feel her mind spiraling into a place she's never had it go, somewhere she wants to pull out of but can't.]

Date: 2013-04-09 06:19 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
There are things I cannot set right. Things I won't set right.

[A long breath now, and she calms herself, her voice steadying.]

I'm not sure if I want to try. But I would give so much to see Miranda again. Just to tell her... that I love her. That I'm proud of her, no matter what she does. That I should've been there.

[She's actually shocked at her own words, that she's allowing anything to come from her heart, but... Maybe if she says it now she'll never have to say it again.]

Date: 2013-04-09 06:35 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[She shares it, if only because of the hell they're going through. She misses her somewhat comfortable office right now. The coffee. The idle letters she wrote and never sent.]

My work was always so much more important. More urgent. She deserved to be cared for.

Date: 2013-04-09 06:39 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
Of course you won't be. And she'll be like both of us. Too smart for her own good.

[Reaching for the pipe, now.]

Date: 2013-04-09 06:48 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[Taking the pipe from his mouth, she sighs again. The heirloom is turned over and over in her hands, passed between her fingers curiously.]

I'm guessing they're not science museums.

Date: 2013-04-09 06:55 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
Does she ever talk about me?

[Cradling the pipe in both hands, she holds it near her chin, inhaling the faint aroma of long-gone tobacco.]

Date: 2013-04-09 07:00 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
Good.

[It weighs on her for a moment, but Jacob would do what was best for Miranda, even if that meant not mentioning her at all.

She turns the pipe over once more before handing it back to him.]

Date: 2013-04-09 01:42 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
She always enjoyed learning new things.

[Finally, she realizes she's started pulling at her hair again, and lets her hands rest on her lap. One is then moved to Jacob's knee. Again, as the first day, they're two grieving parents. Only this time they have something real to grieve. Their own failure, or perhaps success, depending upon how you view the world.]

Date: 2013-04-10 03:39 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
I can only hope--

[He pulls her closer and she sighs, shuddering before she finally, finally lets herself process everything. John's words. Revelations about Jacob, about Miranda, about humanity itself. And she still doesn't know what to do but to clutch at the cloth of Jacob's pants and move in just a little closer.

She can't be alone. She's not ready to be alone, even if she tells herself she should be, should be tough, shouldn't let Jacob see her break any more than she already has.

Biting her tongue, she turns her head toward him and presses her cheek to his shoulder.]

Date: 2013-04-10 04:06 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[Don't? She could take that so many ways.

Don't chastise yourself.

Don't blame yourself.

Don't break.


All are true. And all of them make her want to shrivel up in a very tiny, dark place for the rest of time. This is more than she was ever prepared for, more than she ever knew she couldn't bear.

Another brief shake, and she puts her far arm awkwardly around him, hooking fingers gently over his hip as she presses her eyes against the fabric of his clothing.]


Please stay.

Date: 2013-04-10 04:40 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] coffeebeforescience
[She glances down at his hand, then quietly gasps.]

Jacob, your hand...

[Now she's pulling herself back together and reaching for his hand, examining it carefully.]

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